“Woe to me if I think souls are saved by me or them becoming poetic. But few are damned by it, and of the thousand things we fill our days with, this could be more useful to the glory of God than what we do most of the time.” John Piper
Do my words really matter? I wonder often. A few years ago I wrote often, sharing words in a blog, sharing my story. And maybe because life was busy, maybe because I believed the answer to my question was no, I stopped writing. Stopped sharing. I felt like I was just being selfish.
But the Lord started doing some stirring in my heart, and I’ve been asking some new questions. Could it be this very thing I sometimes ache to do, that awakens the eternal ache in me, could it be this is the way you’ve uniquely stamped your image on my person? That seeing, and learning to see beyond what I see, that this is actually the way you’ve created me to display your glory? With words and pictures and music and putting all these things together, so that I can with Henry Vaughan seek and find, “through all this fleshly dress, bright shoots of everlastingness.”
Could it be I’m holding back the very avenue that would fulfill His purposes in my life most effectively and authentically in the way He has put me together, because I doubt that it’s really important?
And on top of all these questions, and all the signs along the way pointing this direction, comes one final question from my dad. “So, what’s stopping you?”
And I know the answer but don’t want to say it. Fear.
And I step out scared, and I know I might fail, but I lay it at my heavenly Father’s feet and remember that no matter how I fail to live up to my own, or anyone else’s standards, He will always say to me, “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; You are mine.” Isaiah 43:1
If it pleases You Lord, let my words be the unfolding story of Your grace, of Your glory in this moment. Because I don’t want to live my life and keep missing it. Missing you, here in this moment.
Thanks for reading and sharing life with me today! For those who don’t know me, my name is Kara, and I’d love to get to know you and your story. Thanks for being patient with my lack of technical expertise and finese as I jump into blog-land!